So... my fourth "daily" card has been drawn and sitting on my side-table for about a month-and-a-half. It's the Five of Fire ("Totality") AKA the Five of Bows ("Empowerment") AKA the Five of Flames ("Pele").

In the Osho Zen deck, that I've been reading from for about a decade at this point, the Five of Fire is my "leap of faith" card. It's about trust, about interconnectedness and believing that, when you jump, someone is going to catch you.
For me, I read this almost like a Cups card, it's so full of FEELINGS, so full of taking chances on things that you want SO BADLY. Should I send out another round of query letters? Five of Fire. Should I ask that cute human to come over for a maybe-possibly-date? Five of Fire. Should I apply for that dream job? Five of Fire.
It's the card that shows up when I need to be reminded to "follow my curiosity" (rather than my fear - thanks Liz Gilbert) and, sometimes, to give other people (because I haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaate *having* to rely on other people) the benefit of the doubt. Stuff, in general, where my "keep you secret, keep you safe" brain that says "It could all go horribly, horribly wrong!" needs a little bit of reassurance and a suggestion that, perhaps, it's being a little bit paranoid at the moment.

HAHAHA: Apparently this is quite a ways away from the "Traditional" meaning of the card, which is "hassle and butting heads". Really? News to me...

The DotM card, Pele... doesn't suggest that for me at all. Rather, she reminds me of the "Breakthrough" (11 of MA - AKA "Justice") card in my Osho Zen deck and, a little bit, of the Shiva Nata dance that Havi, over at The Fluent Self, used to teach. The movement that shakes down the old world (or the old cosmology, if you will) so that the new world can be built ("You learn a pattern, you take it apart"). Bricks are bricks, and - like flour and butter - can be used in infinite combinations to make what you need to make right then.

I admit to a certain amount of balking when it comes to the Wildwood's take on this card. I do not like that my card that, for years, has been a relative of the Three of Cups for me, is suddenly Some Dude with a giant (literally) boner and a big club and a bow. My reaction to seeing this card is (alas) "Eugh. This loser..."
According to the Wildwood's Little Reference Book, it's supposed to reference the (pro/)creative power of Nature, and the imagery does line up (somewhat) with the card's traditional meaning of "competition" (sometimes playful, sometimes not). I'm really not sure how to deal with him. I mean, if I look at my Totality card, and try to translate that meaning onto the Empowerment card? I can look at those first four bows laid out, look at their relationship to the Long Man (or the Giant, or whatever you want to call him), and consider it a reminder that we are more powerful when we are part of a good team that can rely on each other and have each others' backs. So that's something. Meh?

The suggestion from the various reference guides I've looked up is that people may be talking or working at cross-purposes, too caught up in what they're expecting to hear to be able to hear what's actually being said. I can relate to that, at least. It circles back to the reminder to give people the benefit of the doubt rather than listening to the stories in one's head to the exclusion of seeing what's really there.

Also (allegedly) built into this card are:
The need for play + the benefits of hobbies & doing things just for fun
The potential for "good conflict" as when brainstorming solutions and negotiating to get everyone's needs met in a given situation
The need to have some empathy, to be patient, and to stay aware that not everyone has had the same experiences that you've had (I read that as "intersectionality is a thing", but it can also just be "not everyone has worked with Zoe before" or whatever)
The need to work through personal (as in: inside of yourself) conflicts, deal with fears or tantrums that you want to throw, or whatever. You may be feeling "scattered" at this time, or like you can't make any headway (is the the Mercury in Retrograde card? Possibly)


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