So... my fourth "daily" card has been drawn and sitting on my side-table for about a month-and-a-half. It's the Five of Fire ("Totality") AKA the Five of Bows ("Empowerment") AKA the Five of Flames ("Pele").

In the Osho Zen deck, that I've been reading from for about a decade at this point, the Five of Fire is my "leap of faith" card. It's about trust, about interconnectedness and believing that, when you jump, someone is going to catch you.
For me, I read this almost like a Cups card, it's so full of FEELINGS, so full of taking chances on things that you want SO BADLY. Should I send out another round of query letters? Five of Fire. Should I ask that cute human to come over for a maybe-possibly-date? Five of Fire. Should I apply for that dream job? Five of Fire.
It's the card that shows up when I need to be reminded to "follow my curiosity" (rather than my fear - thanks Liz Gilbert) and, sometimes, to give other people (because I haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaate *having* to rely on other people) the benefit of the doubt. Stuff, in general, where my "keep you secret, keep you safe" brain that says "It could all go horribly, horribly wrong!" needs a little bit of reassurance and a suggestion that, perhaps, it's being a little bit paranoid at the moment.

HAHAHA: Apparently this is quite a ways away from the "Traditional" meaning of the card, which is "hassle and butting heads". Really? News to me...

The DotM card, Pele... doesn't suggest that for me at all. Rather, she reminds me of the "Breakthrough" (11 of MA - AKA "Justice") card in my Osho Zen deck and, a little bit, of the Shiva Nata dance that Havi, over at The Fluent Self, used to teach. The movement that shakes down the old world (or the old cosmology, if you will) so that the new world can be built ("You learn a pattern, you take it apart"). Bricks are bricks, and - like flour and butter - can be used in infinite combinations to make what you need to make right then.

I admit to a certain amount of balking when it comes to the Wildwood's take on this card. I do not like that my card that, for years, has been a relative of the Three of Cups for me, is suddenly Some Dude with a giant (literally) boner and a big club and a bow. My reaction to seeing this card is (alas) "Eugh. This loser..."
According to the Wildwood's Little Reference Book, it's supposed to reference the (pro/)creative power of Nature, and the imagery does line up (somewhat) with the card's traditional meaning of "competition" (sometimes playful, sometimes not). I'm really not sure how to deal with him. I mean, if I look at my Totality card, and try to translate that meaning onto the Empowerment card? I can look at those first four bows laid out, look at their relationship to the Long Man (or the Giant, or whatever you want to call him), and consider it a reminder that we are more powerful when we are part of a good team that can rely on each other and have each others' backs. So that's something. Meh?

The suggestion from the various reference guides I've looked up is that people may be talking or working at cross-purposes, too caught up in what they're expecting to hear to be able to hear what's actually being said. I can relate to that, at least. It circles back to the reminder to give people the benefit of the doubt rather than listening to the stories in one's head to the exclusion of seeing what's really there.

Also (allegedly) built into this card are:
The need for play + the benefits of hobbies & doing things just for fun
The potential for "good conflict" as when brainstorming solutions and negotiating to get everyone's needs met in a given situation
The need to have some empathy, to be patient, and to stay aware that not everyone has had the same experiences that you've had (I read that as "intersectionality is a thing", but it can also just be "not everyone has worked with Zoe before" or whatever)
The need to work through personal (as in: inside of yourself) conflicts, deal with fears or tantrums that you want to throw, or whatever. You may be feeling "scattered" at this time, or like you can't make any headway (is the the Mercury in Retrograde card? Possibly)
The card I pulled today was the 8 of the Major Arcana.
I'm putting it that way because the 8 and 11 sometimes switch places, depending on the deck (which is funny, if you're into numerology at all - part of the tarot course I'm taking involves finding your "birth card" using numerology. My birth card is the 8 of the Major Arcana, which means - like Scorpio technically having two guiding planets rather than one - I have two birth cards: Strength and Justice).

In my Osho Zen deck, the 8 is Courage, and it corresponds to the Strength card in the traditional deck. So I pulled the Strength card from the DotM deck (which doesn't give its "Suit of Aether" cards Hierarchical Numbers), and then - not knowing my new deck too well at all - I pulled the 8 of the Major Arcana (The Stag) from my WildWood deck.
Which, as it turns out, is actually the Justice card for that deck. I had to shuffle through and find the 11 card (The Woodward) and use it, instead.

More on Courage... and it's corespondants... )

Anyway. That's my schpiel about Courage/The Woodward/Strength.
Thoughts? Questions? Considerations?


[1]The 8 of the MA (and the other 8s, for that matter) also connects with the 18 of the MA - The Moon. Which is all your lizard-brain stuff, the cycles and patterns you keep repeating over and over and over, sometimes failing to see the pattern because the context keeps changing, sometimes reliving the pattern in spite of very different contexts. It's gut/knee-jerk reaction - which sometimes means making a LOT of assumptions based on previous experiences, but other times means paying attention to what your instincts, your intuition, your deep self-knowledge (the unconscious mind that knows waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay more than the conscious/talking mind wants to admit) has to tell you. It can go either way.
So, as you can see, I'm take much more than one day at a time to do these cards.
Bear with me.

The Emperor

In the Osho Zen deck, this is The Rebel. In the WildWood deck, he's The Green Man. In the DotM deck, his aspect has been absorbed into (or combined with, as the case may be) that of The Empress, who is depicted as Mawu... but I'm really not sure how much of The Emperor is left in that card, so I mention it but probably won't draw on it all that much in this particular write-up.

More on The Emperor )

So that's what I've got on the Emperor. It's not a lot ot go on, but it's more than generally comes to mind when I pull that card in a reading.

Well, that's a nice card to start this off with. (I signed up for a tarot course and part of it is that you draw one card a day and write/meditate about it, so that's what I'm doing, although this probaby isn't going to literally happen every day... we shall see). Just as a note to myself, how I'm going about this is:

1) Draw a card off the top of the Osho Zen Tarot deck, which is the one I've been reading from for the past 8 years or so.

2) Find the approximately-corresponding card (this isn't going to work 100% of the time) in the Daughters of the Moon deck that The Moderatrix gave me[1], and then looking up the corresponding Wildwood Tarot image on the internet[2]. I'd be doing this with the Next World Tarot cards as well, but they're still a work in progress and my deck won't be turning up until about August 2017, so I'm leaving that go for now (unless I pull one of the half dozen or so cards that are available as images online, in which case I will most likely include them). I'm also looking up the drawn card in my two Little Books, for added information (I may also draw on the Biddy Tarot website and one or two other sites, as they've been known to have insites that I didn't know about before), but the written work is going to be secondary to what I come up with on my own.

3) Write about how I understand the card in question, using the images (and, later, if I feel the need, some secondary sources / written work) to add to my original impressions.

Ready? Here we go!

The Queen of Earth )

So there you go. The Queen of Earth.


[1] It's a weird deck. It started as a reimagining of the traditional tarot, but a lot of things have been moved around, conflated, or otherwise switched up. So the Knights and Pages of each suit have been combined to become the Maidens in this deck, a lot of the suit of swords has been redistributed among the four suits, and a number of the Major Arcana cards have been combined (Emperor and Empress are one card now, for example) or out-right removed so that each suit (MA included) has 13 cards. It's not really a tarot deck anymore, but something else entirely. None the less, I'm bringing it into play because I want to be able to read with all of my cards, not just some of them.

[2] In theory, my Wildwood deck will show up about a week from tomorrow, at which point I'll start pulling the cards physically, but until then: Interwebs.


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