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amazon_syren) wrote2009-01-18 11:59 am
amazon_syren) wrote2009-01-18 11:59 am
This was supposed to go up yesterday.
I feel really bizarre.
Selfish, I guess.
There are a zillion people dying in Gaza, and someone in town, whose chosen family I know, got taken off life-support today.
And I'm sitting here, sopping about, feeling insecure around my girlfriend.
There's a huge tonne of stuff swirling around in my head about this -- Sara and I talked a little bit about what's going on in my head.
Basically, I spent four months "on probation" until she decided that she actually wanted to fully participate in our relationship. And then she went to the states, and I didn't see her for a month (or pretty damn close).
My "operating instructions" are still playing catch-up, I guess. ;-)
...
And some idiot has just pulled the fire alarm. Asshole.
Selfish, I guess.
There are a zillion people dying in Gaza, and someone in town, whose chosen family I know, got taken off life-support today.
And I'm sitting here, sopping about, feeling insecure around my girlfriend.
There's a huge tonne of stuff swirling around in my head about this -- Sara and I talked a little bit about what's going on in my head.
Basically, I spent four months "on probation" until she decided that she actually wanted to fully participate in our relationship. And then she went to the states, and I didn't see her for a month (or pretty damn close).
My "operating instructions" are still playing catch-up, I guess. ;-)
...
And some idiot has just pulled the fire alarm. Asshole.