What Does the Amazon Want?

So.
I was at work today.
(I WAS AT WORK TODAY!!!)

I may even get a chance to use my brain at this job. (Woah...) But we shall see. :-)

Regardless, the people are really nice, and my boss is fun and has an awesome manicure, and her boss is fun and has pink-and-black hair and is in a rock band. So I'm not the only weirdo in the office. ;-)


But. Because I can't get my computer up and running until I have a building pass, and can't have a building pass until I fill out a bunch of forms that require things like a PRI and next-of-kin contact information (which I need to re-located, but definitely didn't have on me today), I spent most of today reading up on things.
It went well. It was a leisurely start to the contract, and it also meant that I (A) went home an hour early, and (B) had a chance to think about What I Want.

See. I need to figure that out. I still have no earthly notion of what I want career-wise. But at least I can, like, make lists and flow-charts and so-on about what I want in my life. And this is some of what I put down:


Creativity: Fashion (design, general enjoyment), music (singing -- jazz, opera, etc), photography (modeling), writing (poetry, prose, often erotic)

Security: financial, emotional (trust, general got-my-head-together-ness) -- (mental = also good, but that's more under control right now)

Sensuality: sex, romance, lush fabrics, great shoes, comfort, pedicures, long baths (with awesome-smelling bath STUFF), erotica, great food (fresh fruit, organics, good wine, smoked salmon, chocolate mousse, fresh greens, and everything else), perfume, massages, candle light, warm blankets, peoples' nice skin to touch and be touched by

Beauty: See Sensuality and Creativity

Passion: Also See Sensuality and Creativity

Radical Feminism: Environmentalism (organics, eco-paganism/eco-feminism), trans rights, sex workers' rights, sex-possitivity in general


There were a couple of others, but those are the big ones. As you can see, sensuality and creativity are kind of high on the list. ;-)

I kind of want to get one of those books that shows you how to make a million and one Nifty Articles of Clothing out of old t-shirts. Just 'cause I like recycled clothing. (I suspect I could find one at the OPL, actually. Or just figure things out on my own. ;-)
I like the idea of going through the racks at, like, St. Vincent de Paul's or something and snagging a bunch of old, monochromatic-yet-pattered light pull-overs or what-not and cutting them up and turning them into funky, warm, dresses that I could wear to work or a show or a club or all of the above (if I'm *really* good. ;-)
I'd like to make a couple of sun-dresses out of these two batiked skirts that I've got, and I have vague ideas for fet-type cocktail dresses that could be constructed out of old raincoats or something like that.

At least that's the idea. :-)


Anyway. If any of these see more than the idea stage, I'll be thrilled (though, at present, slightly surprised). But at least the ideas are there for me to hunt through, should I ever find myself with the opportunity to sew some stuff. :-)


Aditionally, I had a nice chat with Sara today. Just yammering away about fashion, for the most part. It was light and fun and we laughed together, and I am happy about this.
She told me she's kind of been a space-cadet since she decided that she wasn't going to do her restaurant anymore (so late December, maybe?) - that she's still trying to get herself to focus and what-not.
Fair enough.
(Part of me sighs, fondly, and thinks "That's my silly girl..." when she says that, even though the thought is kind of awfully condescending. Another part of me goes "Really? You don't say..." and yet another part of me is going "Ah... Hm... So maybe you'll get your head together and start, like, being able to focus... on me? Perhaps? At some point?" Who knows. But it's something to think about. Or maybe not. ;-)
But it was nice to talk and feel connected and not be slightly freaking out at the same time.
That felt really good, I have to tell you.
And she was asking what my work-hours are, and finding out when my contract goes 'til and stuff like that there, which was nice of her. :-)
Anyway. Feeling better now than I was both last night and this morning. YAY! :-D


In other news: I wrote another poem: Written in Skin. Go have a read. :-)



- TTFN,
- Amazon. :-)