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I feel slightly better.

Dinner at the Rochester house has helped.

So has talking to my darling girl. :-)

(Mainly, I confess, the latter - though I don't think anyone will fault me for it).

We talked.

She told me about her audition - she didn't make the cut to the next audition, but she learned a lot about what she needs to do in order to have a better shot at it next year, so that's good.

I told her about my little adventure this afternoon, directing traffic around a small accident (the gal who got hit - or who I *think* got hit - was sitting up by the time the ambulence got there, so I think she'll be just fine) at the corner of Sommerset and Percy.

We chatted about what we'll be up to tomorrow.

I told her about what I'd been writing today, and how I was sorting out my main character's motivations and what-not. She remembered which story I was talking about, which is really nice given what-all she's had on her mind of late. :-)

She told me that she's giving (YET) another chance to that schmuck who (A) stood her up, and then (B) left without paying, when she gave him another chance, the last time she was in NYC.
But he's paying double for the hour, so that he's paying her back what he owes her.
Assuming he shows up this time, which is pretty debateable.
Here's hoping.
She's going to call me when she's finished, so that's all good. :-)

It was really nice talking to her. Just talking. I miss her, and wish she was here, that we could have more of those nice, no-pressure chats when she was visiting. I think this is something we're both going to have to learn: How to be intense and laid-back at the same time. How to focus a lot of energy and attention on someone over a sustained period of time, while also finding the balance between doing that and actually getting day-to-day stuff done AND not causing oneself to burn out in the process (or, in my case, not burning myself out or scaring my sweetie away at the same time).


It's funny. See, I'm *mostly* happy with my relationship with her. Sometimes I'm sad (because I miss her, either because she's out of town or because she's emotionally withdrawn, or because we are dealing with a fair ammount of uncertainty here) and sometimes (like lately) I'm frustrated and pissed off, but mostly I'm happy with what we've got.
And I think that's a good sign.
We'll see how I'm feeling about all of this over the next seven or eight weeks, but I'm doing okay right now.


Anyway. It's 8:45pm and I am, as per usual these days, really, really tired. So I think I'll just toddle off to bed now, instead of staying up and watching a movie. (I have "The Princess Diaries" rented for the week, and I'd really like to get around to watching it, but I'm tired-tired-tired and I don't want to keep myself in a state of perpetual exhaustion in the name of watching Anne Hathaway swan around in ball gowns. At least not on my own. ;-)


Anyway. Off to bed with me. :-)


- TTFN,
- Amazon.