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I can go back to worrying about myself.
Hahaha.
<*shudder*>
I am half-inclined to not even bother looking for work today.
Admittedly, only *half* inclined.
My rent has not been taken out of my account yet. O.o
Presumeably that will happen today.
My girl is safe, warm, able to get some sleep, has money in her pockets, and has contact information for people she can stay with, and/or who might know of people she can stay with.
I am still unemployed. Which is a problem. In theory, things will perk back up as of Monday, I'm just very worried that they won't perk up *for me* as of Monday.
But I live in hope!
My sister came over last night and raided my VHS collection. If anyone wants to sneak a peak at what I've got, they can. I also have a VCR available. (I also have a desk-top computer available, and a big box full of Books to Good Home. Any takers?)
She commented on my weight.
As in: "God. You're so thin! This is really not healthy."
I have a number of reactions to this.
1) Is this the same gal who, eight months ago, was telling me that, rather than modify my clothes, I could just lose some weight?
2) Oh, please, I've been hearing that one since I was nine. Can we drop it already?
3) Yeah, well, stress does that to you. Having no option *but* to walk everywhere does that to you. Not wanting to spend too much on groceries does that to you. Did I mention the stress? I lose my apetite when I get stressed out. You want me to eat? Find someone to hire me. K-thnx-bai.
4) Yeah, it is kinda scary, isn't it? I realized, yesterday, that I can see my ribs again. Also, I miss my c-cup tits and curvy ass.
5) I can see my ribs again! I have pointy hip-bones again! I have a jaw-line instead of freaking jowels again! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!! :-D
As you can see, my emotions are somewhat mixed on this subject.
My mom sent us both home from dinner last night with left-over ham. Part of me wants to chop it up and put it in a soup tonight. Most of me is going "Mmm... No. Save it for later. Do the many-beans-and-barley soup for tonight".
It will involve savoury, and a couple of kinds of mushrooms. And a sweet potato or two. Not sure what else.
I'm all excited because I have a lot of socializing coming up. I get to hang out with neighbourhood folks (and Ami!) this afternoon/evening (thense my desire to make a soup), and I have company coming tomorrow afternoon.
I'm not sure what's happening with the photoshoot on Sunday. (Ghad, that's annoying).
But Monday evening, Seanchaidh is coming to visit! Wheeeeeeee! :-D
If I'm really lucky, I'll be telling her what time I have to leave for work in the morning.
(Wish me lots of luck on that one, please!)
Anyway. This was going to be that post about New Years and my goals and plans for 2009.
Since, at present, everything is pretty-much up in the air, my goals for 2009 include:
1) Just Keep Going,
AND
2) Sort my head out.
My mom commented that those are pretty elemental "resolutions". Meaning that they're very survival-based.
And I said: "Yup. Every one of them."
Hopefully the basic survival thing will sort itself out fairly quickly and I'll be able to make less desperate plans, such as:
1) Maintain long distance relationship with beloved girlfriend,
AND
2) Get more poetry published,
AND
3) Take a refresher singing lesson now and then
AND
4) Learn to make soap
AND
5) Have regular Wonderful Women parties
AND
6) Make saleable jewelery and/or bath-products and try to make enough income to support my arts-and-crafts habit (if not more than that, though ideally more than that) by selling my stuff at craft fairs and on Etsy and so-on.
And stuff like that there.
But, yeah. Just at the moment, I'm still (alas) kind of in survival mode. :-P
Anyway. There we go. New Years Post: Complete. :-)
- TTFN,
- Amazon.
Hahaha.
<*shudder*>
I am half-inclined to not even bother looking for work today.
Admittedly, only *half* inclined.
My rent has not been taken out of my account yet. O.o
Presumeably that will happen today.
My girl is safe, warm, able to get some sleep, has money in her pockets, and has contact information for people she can stay with, and/or who might know of people she can stay with.
I am still unemployed. Which is a problem. In theory, things will perk back up as of Monday, I'm just very worried that they won't perk up *for me* as of Monday.
But I live in hope!
My sister came over last night and raided my VHS collection. If anyone wants to sneak a peak at what I've got, they can. I also have a VCR available. (I also have a desk-top computer available, and a big box full of Books to Good Home. Any takers?)
She commented on my weight.
As in: "God. You're so thin! This is really not healthy."
I have a number of reactions to this.
1) Is this the same gal who, eight months ago, was telling me that, rather than modify my clothes, I could just lose some weight?
2) Oh, please, I've been hearing that one since I was nine. Can we drop it already?
3) Yeah, well, stress does that to you. Having no option *but* to walk everywhere does that to you. Not wanting to spend too much on groceries does that to you. Did I mention the stress? I lose my apetite when I get stressed out. You want me to eat? Find someone to hire me. K-thnx-bai.
4) Yeah, it is kinda scary, isn't it? I realized, yesterday, that I can see my ribs again. Also, I miss my c-cup tits and curvy ass.
5) I can see my ribs again! I have pointy hip-bones again! I have a jaw-line instead of freaking jowels again! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!! :-D
As you can see, my emotions are somewhat mixed on this subject.
My mom sent us both home from dinner last night with left-over ham. Part of me wants to chop it up and put it in a soup tonight. Most of me is going "Mmm... No. Save it for later. Do the many-beans-and-barley soup for tonight".
It will involve savoury, and a couple of kinds of mushrooms. And a sweet potato or two. Not sure what else.
I'm all excited because I have a lot of socializing coming up. I get to hang out with neighbourhood folks (and Ami!) this afternoon/evening (thense my desire to make a soup), and I have company coming tomorrow afternoon.
I'm not sure what's happening with the photoshoot on Sunday. (Ghad, that's annoying).
But Monday evening, Seanchaidh is coming to visit! Wheeeeeeee! :-D
If I'm really lucky, I'll be telling her what time I have to leave for work in the morning.
(Wish me lots of luck on that one, please!)
Anyway. This was going to be that post about New Years and my goals and plans for 2009.
Since, at present, everything is pretty-much up in the air, my goals for 2009 include:
1) Just Keep Going,
AND
2) Sort my head out.
My mom commented that those are pretty elemental "resolutions". Meaning that they're very survival-based.
And I said: "Yup. Every one of them."
Hopefully the basic survival thing will sort itself out fairly quickly and I'll be able to make less desperate plans, such as:
1) Maintain long distance relationship with beloved girlfriend,
AND
2) Get more poetry published,
AND
3) Take a refresher singing lesson now and then
AND
4) Learn to make soap
AND
5) Have regular Wonderful Women parties
AND
6) Make saleable jewelery and/or bath-products and try to make enough income to support my arts-and-crafts habit (if not more than that, though ideally more than that) by selling my stuff at craft fairs and on Etsy and so-on.
And stuff like that there.
But, yeah. Just at the moment, I'm still (alas) kind of in survival mode. :-P
Anyway. There we go. New Years Post: Complete. :-)
- TTFN,
- Amazon.